I’ve been feeling kinda crazy lately. Not wild, but insane. After six long days of work I have finally come to realize what money is worth. Nothing, not unless it has commas and is sitting in your bank account. At the end of the week I am exhausted, sure some people probably work harder then me, ill give it to you. But waking up at 6, spending the day in the classroom and making my way to work has been hectic not to mention all the extra things i had to do. Now don’t get me wrong, I love money and until i make babies it will be one of my main priorities. I dream of the big house, nice car and latest technology. And believe it or not, those dreams get me to my part time job on time and with a smile on my face. My muscles are weak, my back is aching and I’m on day 4 with a constant minor headache. My paycheck won’t be some outrageous amount of money i have never seen before. I’m not balling out or laughing my way to the bank like I have been. I lost focus in why I put so much time in. Coming up on two years at my current job, and over the years i lost the direction i was headed when i first started making money. Its not the nice clothes, fancy vacations or big backyard that i’m stressing for. Its for my family. Its for the smile on my face every morning, the hot shower I enjoy before i rest my head for the night. I work for the things that cant be defined. All the things i have lost, failed and destroyed. The things i have gained, succeeded and built. The things i was born with and will die with. The good times and the bad. The Exs that should have stuck around. The future partners i may have. The summer nights and snowy days. The candles burning, the moon lighting my bedroom and my goldfish swimming in the tank. I’m working for whats current. NOW. The best things in life may be free but I’m ready to start stacking. Time to better myself and the things around me. Starting NOW.